BURP: taking class.
To my old followers: remember when that’s all I’d ever do? Remember my frequent videos of all the classes I’d take from different choreographers every week? Gosh, what happened to that Lizzy?
There was a fire that burned so bright within me back then… All I wanted to do was learn, train, and grow as a dancer. I made some continuous progress but then I just kind of stopped. My passion started dying out slowly until it eventually got lost somewhere, which in turn, hindered my growth and even made my skill level hit a dramatic decline. Ever since this semester started, I’ve felt more insecure about my dancing every day. I knew it wasn’t in my head either; I felt myself not dancing like I used to. I felt myself not going full out or executing things properly and it really affected my confidence. It wasn’t until recently I decided to actively do something about it.
Tonight I took class from Brian and Scott Nicholson at Broadway Dance Center. I’ve been taking more classes at BDC for the past two weeks in hopes of getting myself out of this dance-funk.
And tonight… something clicked.
Somewhere in the middle of class I felt so driven and so at home… When it finally clicked inside of me I felt unstoppable. That renewed driving force was enough for me to be completely satisfied with Brian and Scott’s class but, to top it all off, Brian called me out at the end of class. I haven’t been picked for select group/called out by a choreographer in so. damn. long. Granted, I haven’t been taking class religiously but still… I remember when it was like a drug I was addicted to — I would always go to class and had to get select or else I would leave feeling dissatisfied or shitty. But tonight, even if Brian didn’t call me out, I would have left BDC floating on a cloud.
Such good vibes in that studio tonight… I know Jongo and Deema felt it too because right after class we collectively decided the night was too beautiful and we felt too hyped to hop on the train home so we walked. 30 blocks downtown.
I’m just so happy and I can’t even articulate it properly.
It feels good to be back.